Resistance

I’m finding that the most difficult aspect of attracting is keeping resistance away from things. Resistance is any thought that is not of the same vibration as that which is desired. For example, if my desire is for a different career, and I have the thought, ……. But at my age…….. that’s resistance. So much of my thoughts, words, and behaviors during the day are of a negative variety. Working in an inner city school, where the achievement and skill levels get lower every year, while the expectations get higher. See that’s resistance!

God has put me in a doctoral program for learning acceptance, patience, and divine love. I’m in a situation daily that I don’t like, and expected to love it and learn from it. Sometimes, I get the sense that teaching in the city is a prerequisite for getting what I really desire, being an author, lecturer, and life coach.

I will continue to call on my guidance. I will continue to meditate, and will continue to have faith that I am exactly where I need to be at this stage of my life. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t be here. God is guiding my life, and I must accept that I am where I belong. The question that I need an answer for however is this: If I don’t like my job, I don’t like the outside work that goes with it, and I feel like I have the heart of an artist, whose not doing art, what do I do now? It’s 26 years! I am always open to your guidance.

December 2, 2006

December 2, 2006

I have the sense that Spirit woke me out of a sound sleep. I woke up at about 1:30AM completely alert. This is unusual especially on a weekend, when I’m not as stressed. Is there a message that you have for me?

Vicki and I had a nice time last night (tonight) with Steve and Robin. We were all very comfortable with each other and had a lot to talk about. I felt they really liked us. What’s not to like? Vicki and I are a great couple, and Vicki looked great as usual.

So what’s the message? Where’s my book? Am I making a mistake waiting for it to be channeled through me, or am I mistaken about the whole idea of a book? I know that I must spend much more time writing or at least journaling. Could I be mistaken about the whole author/lecturer/life coach career idea? Ego doubt
again?